well where do i start....................hi my name is ffbb and i am "going"to eventually be a bandit

lap banding...hey yeah i know it's last resort sorta stuff!it's been a journey..........oh yeah what a journey it has been....once upon a time there was a 10 year old child that came from a very multicultural family dutch father and indonesian mother ,big family 9 siblings so as you can imagine food glorious food it is the centre and has always been the centre of our universe.i remember taking these smelly lunches to school......beef rundung sanwiches,chicken satays etc etc i remember saying to my mum at the ripe old age of 10.................i don't want to have the stuff you give me in my lunch box ,i want normal food like all the other kids"i will start making my own lunch"

and there began the spiral down

down

down

i started taking jam and butter sandwiches yum so nice and so normal just like the other kids,but it was 4 slices of bread...not 2...then rubber cheese kraft slices,again not 1 try the whole 12 slices

nobody noticed...having such a big family the fridge was always chocka blocka so like james bond the alias 007 i to had a licence to fill.......ooooppppssss i mean kill...which is where i am now

slowly but surely killing myself with food

travelling on in time i was 13 years old and weighed 13 stone...coincidence hey he he he translated that is 78 kg shame shame shame.......if i had stuck to the asian based diet i would probably still be skinny till this day and not created such bad eating habits for myself

15 years of age saw a major leauge turn around for me.

after refusing to do my chore in the afternoon my mother yelled at me.......your just turning into a big fat lazy cow eeeewwwwwww what a thing for a mother to say..but it was the big kick up my ample butt that i needed to hear,next morning im up at 5am doing the ed allen excercise show then after that i would do the richard symons 2 tins of ardmona peaches one gracing each hand as a 1 kg weight....improvise ladies improvise!!!!!those words still ring in my head...fuzzy haired skinny man aka richard symons...continuing on to a sensible eating pan kavli bicci with vegimite fruit pita pockets filled to the brim with loads of salad....all this being done through the winter months of year 10 where a big heavy private girls school blazer and long skirt covered any evidence of my weight loss.....even to myself!!!!suddenly summer arrives and the disrobing and summer uniform comes back in.....never having any scales to weigh myself on i never really realized how much weight i had lost......24kg was gone and so continued my love of exercise...running 15 km a day 5 km on waking 5 km at lunch time and 5 km after school........squash.,tennis,swimming,aerobics you name it i did it never having to worry what passed my lips i fell into this false existence of staying the same weight year after year because i was happy to do the hard miles........and shock horror i enjoyed it!!!! gotta put the kids to bed the story continues!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!