creative visualization....................yeah right

MY FAMILY AND I WERE SITTING DOWN TO A LOVELY MEAL TONIGHT.....CORNED BEEF THAT HAD BEEN COOKING AWAY FOR THE LAST 8 HOURS,WHITE CHEESY SAUCE,CORN CARROTS AND CAULIFLOWER WITH THE CREAMIEST MASHED POTATO I HAVE EVER HAD...100 GRAMS OF BUTTER AND 300ML OF CREAM "OMG" HEAVEN IN A STAINLESS STEEL SAUCEPAN!!!!!!!!!! AS WE ALL SAT DOWN AND ATE OUR DINNER I STARTED VISUALIZING HOW MUCH I WOULD BE EATING IN A MONTH OR SO,WHAT WOULD THE CONSISTENCY BE LIKE,HOW FAST OR HOW LONG SHOULD I BE CHEWING EACH SINGLE BITE,SHOULD I GET A REALLY NICE BREAD AND BUTTER PLATE TO CALL MY VERY OWN AND USE THAT FOR ALL MY MEALS,CONCENTRATE ON NO DRINKING DURING THE MEAL??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????ETCETCETCETC.

NEXT THING...I LOOK DOWN AND I HAVE FINISHED MY WHOLE ENTIRE MEAL, EMBARRASSINGLY EVEN BEFORE MY HUGE 15 YEAR OLD FRONT ROW FORWARD SON........

DINNER WAS SO NICE THAT..OF COURSE I WANTED MORE....BUT I DID HAVE AN ULTERIOR MOTIVE....EVERYTHING I DO HAS A GOOD REASON TO IT !!!!! I THOUGHT WELL I'LL PUT A PORTION ON MY PLATE THAT WILL BE THE CORRECT SIZE FOR A BANDED PERSON....SO ON WENT THE CORNED BEEF,MASHED POTATO...HOLD THE VEGES(ONLY BECAUSE PROTEIN IN SO IMPORTANT)AND TOPPED IT WITH LOADS OF WHITE SAUCE....WELL YOU NEED LOTS OF MOISTURE SO THE FOOD GOES DOWN EASIER AND DOESN'T GET STUCK!!!!!! RIGHT...SO I COME BACK TO THE TABLE WITH MY LITTLE MOUND ON MY PLATE AND I BEGIN TO CHOP AND SHRED INTO LITTLE PIECES...GOING THROUGH MY MIND...WOULD THIS BE THE MUSHY STAGE????TO STINGY FOR THE PUREED STAGE..........NEXT THING I LOOK DOWN AND IT'S GONE....SO MUCH FOR THE SEEING HOW LONG TO CHEW FOR ETC......MY OH MY THIS BANDING THING IS GOING TO BE A REAL EYE OPENER....CAUSE IT CERTAINLY CAN'T BE ANY MORE OF A MOUTH OPENER.........................SEE YA GOTTA GO AND HAVE DESSERT!

LOVE FFBB XX

oooops and double oooppps meant to say goog as in egg i definetaly wasn't good'

just not fat enough..............................

i was just talking to my fellow future bandster and telling her how inappropriate i felt on these lap banding forums....................why you may ask ????well i feel like i'm the piggy in the middle and no one is ever going to throw the ball to me.........................i go to the nov banding forum cause my friend and i in crime are hopefully being banded in nov 09...put in your weight 95kg height 158 bmi 38.5.............so i've bared my soul as well as my big fat gut and no one wants to know me....i just feel like everyones in the 100kg plus club....by the way because i am scoffing down all the things that will never pass my lips after banding.........i am sure my efforts will be rewarded by the nov banders........don't get me wrong ,nothing nasty has ever past the finger tips of these wonderful girls on this forum.....especially my pal katy!!!!!but i feel like i'm in the black hole of bmi...........there are the low bmi'ers 30 to 35 and to tell you the truth looking through these i have found some comparitive weight to my own...so i went and introduced myself ..............we'll see if the 30-35 low banding group will accept me into their gates of heaven...because at the moment i feel like a character in ghost whisperer and i need melinda's help to cross over he he all good though even though i didn't feel comfy about the nov banders....definetely an emotional eater after having a bitch to my dear friend katy i vacummed up a whole big bowl of mushrooms ooooppppssss x 2 that's healthy you say yep don't jump in to fast....with a half a jar of name it vegemite and 4 packets of pizza shapes....pizza shape,a load of the no name vege and then a mushroom...................crap im bad i seriously need to get my shit together....big banding rule.....no food for at least 2 hours prior to bed.....howz that going to work??????i can't sleep properly cause i'm hungry!!!!!another catch 22 to add to my list he he off to bed now cause im full as a good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!bad fattifattibumbum xxx